"I believe the time for everyone to be born and die is in God's hands. If it's my time to die, I am prepared. I don't know what the future holds, but I know who holds the future. "I was by a person today, 'Are you absolutely sure that you are going to heaven?' I said, 'I'm absolutely sure. Not because of anything I've done. I've sinned. I'm going to heaven because of what Christ did on that cross and the fact that God raised him from the dead.' "What about you? Is there a doubt in your heart that if you died at this moment you'd go to heaven? Now is the accepted time. Today is the day of salvation. Come while you can." - Billy Graham, from Songs Inspired by The Passion of the Christ CD

Learning to Walk in Trust

Woke up unusually early today at 6. I think it was an involuntary alarm that woke me up because I was hoping to watch the live feed of the Amazing Race in Studio 23. I learned that the Philippines will be host to last two (2) pit stops before the finish line of the race. One will be in the Coconut Palace in Manila and El Nido in Palawan. Cheers to the Philippines. There was nothing to watch and it so happened it was time for Joyce Meyer and Benny Hinn ministries back to back on TV. Listening to them is always a blessing of the soul. Here are some messages that impacted me as I listeded to the preaching: God's mercies are new every morning - because we tend to use up all that was yesterday. - Joyce Meyer (Funny but thank God) "What would make you enjoy your life today?" - Joyce Following Christ will cost you much, it costs everything... And thank God I have nothing. - Katherine Kuhlman from Benny Hinn During this time God's presence was very present as I felt his love for me. He reminded me to trust only in him and not by my own strength. I have been surrounded lately with politics and ministry that I missed sticking with the basics of making God smile. Am I making God smile? Later I will be in campus ministry.

Last night I slept with a very hard headache. My dad painted the door in our room and the fumes made me really dizzy. Woke up at around 9am in a designer mode, to go to a client in Makati. It has been almost 3 weeks of collaboration with this project and still no definite direction as to how the final design should look like. I was hoping today might change that. I made a good second layout. I know it when I see one. I won't settle for mediocre outputs. I had high hopes. But when I presented my layout to the client, it was softly rejected. I noticed my spirit go from confident to gloomy even as I talked with the client. I'm not good in hiding feelings. The bottom-line I realized was just follow what the client says. I left their office at lunchtime. I dropped by Asturias in UST to had the Purpose Driven Life in Tagalog, which my typing team industriously encoded in Word, photocopied for the campus cellgroup in Valenzuela. We typed it because I wanted a week-by-week sections of the PDL to be given weekly, this was to minimize the cost of production from buying a complete book. I still hadn't take lunch. Then I decided to visit the UST registrar to ask for a transcript of records of my college course. I wanted to make sure I already graduated. I was supposed to graduate last March. I confirmed I already graduated because I am on the list of graduates. One worry off my mind. Then to pass the time of waiting for the photocopies to be done, I decided to go to SM Manila to watch Kill Bill Vol. 2. Just like the college days. It was a whole tour of the University Belt, Quiapo and Lawton. I arrived in the middle of the movie and watched it from beginning to end. I almost failed to check the time that I left the mall at 6pm, rushing to catch the xerox shop open.

Panorama of the rooftop where we hold our campus cellgroups in Parada National High School. I pray that God would fill this hall with students who worships him.

Just set up my old drum set. It's missing a couple of nuts and bolts. I'll probably drop by Raon to pick up some parts..

Campus Ministry Kicks Off

This afternoon was the launching of our Campus Carecell in Downtown Manila. In the morning I was busy working at a project. I was in a designer mode. My design juices had finally start to flow since the night before. I woke up a little late, because I slept late. That's how I am when struck with idea, it wouldn't wait till the next day because I might lost it. It was nearing 12PM, and it is my prayer & fasting time. This time of prayer is very important, because 2 hours later will be the kick-ff of the campus cellgroups. It seems difficult to let go of the keyboard and mouse when there's so much idea going on. And to add to that I am in a struggle to focus on Him. The day before I and Brznf went to Campus Crusade to purchase Purpose Driven Life books to be given to the students in the campus cellgroups. As I dropped by at McDonalds that day in two separate times. I began to worry about the restaurant's management if they would allow us to do cellgroups there. Because I have heard stories of cellgroups being scolded for meeting there for the sake of meeting, not eating. Thank God for friends who are praying for me. I was reminded of a passage in 2 Corinthians that says today is the day of God's favor, today is the day of salvation (2Co 6:2). I prayed that God would strengthen my spirit. Victory is at hand. I came to McDonald's (that's where we meet) to see there are no students from campus ministry yet. I was shaken. But soon enought, they started pouring in. Our campus cells are grouped by schools, there are two at present - Chiang Kai Shek College and Metropolitan Nursing College. We had to make two groups for the Chiang Kai Campus because there were to many students to handle by one cell leader in this setting. All in all there were 13 students who came. I got a chance to pray with some of the students and listen to their life stories, problems at home and in the family and their desire to pursue the campus ministry. Tomorrow, I will be going to Parada National High School in Valenzuela City, north of Manila to launch another campus ministry there. I hear there will be a lot of students who are interested in joining the campus. Next week will be our Purpose Driven Life Book Distribution. O Jesus, I want to see your name be lifted high in the campuses.

Watched Spiderman 2 for the second time this afternoon together with the youth. The movie house was jam-packed we had to sit on the isle for a while. It wasn't much of a movie experience unlike the first time I saw it in Greenhills during its last full show at 12 midnight. This time I again encountered typical movie wreckers I would call it... First was this guy who as if his girlfriend was blind/dumb that he need to describe and explain the logic of everything that happens on the screen. Like "yeah I can see that..." Second was this kid who got her foot stuck in the chair and began screaming and her mother thinks it's amusing. I didn't like that the movie board rated this movie a GP (General Patronage) if that means letting in kids who have short attention spans play house inside the movie house. Third was this old lady who is hyper-reactive in every fight scene where she would suddenly shout inaudible comments when Spiderman is losing to Dr. Octopus. But then again, this isn't my private movie house... After the movie one by one we started to part and go home. When we got to Caloocan, only four of us boys were left, so we decided to eat dinner. But we dropped by first to Caloocan Bethel to visit Mimi and invited their youth band to join us at dinner. So I had quite a day. I got home exhausted. But it's all good. Yet I'm a little behind schedule at work. Need to recharge...

This is my current wallpaper in my PC and cellphone. Spiderman 2 rocks. I loved the love story that evolved in the movie. I am sucker for heartbreak lovestories which Peter & MJ had but in the end they end up together still.

Also bought this book - High-Maintenance Relationships which deals about handling impossible people like critics, martyrs, backstabbers, gossips etc.. Very interesting book.

Yesterday I dropped by Powerbooks in G3 to shop and I found this very nice collection of children's poems and narratives. From Aesop to stories in the Bible. It's called The Book of Virtues. The author's goal is to enforce 'moral education' to its reader, young and old alike.

My Internet is Back!

Yes.. Thank God our phone line is back.

Bubu, Me and Ting at Don Henrico's

Kada pic minus Che-che, na-miss ka namin Che!

Ethel, Kenneth and JP at Don Henrico's

I am still going to an Internet cafe. Phone is still dead. Life is still slow from a techno-dependent perspective. Got home at 3am. Earlier I had dinner with my college friends in Don Henrico's in Glorietta. Nice to catch up on what's happening to my friends. After that, the girls went home early and JP, Kenneth and I catched up on the last full show of Spider-Man 2. I loved the fight scenes between Dr. Octopus and Spider-man. Specially the one where Aunt May was kidnapped by Oct. I liked the character relationships were very well developed. Definitely a movie to watch for 2nd and 3rd time.